Today I Lived

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today, i was on the train reading love walked in — a book i started reading more than a year ago but put down because it didn’t grab my attention enough to finish it. today, i found myself rereading it, smiling, noting down pages with quotes from the book that i felt were beautifully written and/or described my life as it is.

today, i was on the train listening to pete yorn’s just another — a song i’ve been listening to for many years trying to grasp what he meant and tried to say. today, i finally understood what it meant (to me anyway). it was a song about someone who used to be special before, but has now turned to be just another face in the crowd.

and although this is usually a heartbreaking thought, to me it made me feel truly happy and peaceful with my life as it is today.

because if that hadn’t happened — cheesy and as cliche as this might sound, i probably wouldn’t have met that first person who walked into my new life.

today, i was on the train thinking to myself what happiness was like before. in retrospect, it all seemed to be mediocre happiness i made myself believe was real happiness. today, i finally understand what happiness feels like — the kind that can make you stay up all night, wake up so early the next morning, smile until your cheeks hurt, and fill your heart up until you burst. the kind that can make you write from the heart. the kind that cannot par with words.

today, i found myself smiling at the refreshing thought that things all make sense at the right time. love and happiness come when you can truly appreciate everything that comes your way. and more importantly, when you can fully give your heart and everything to that person who deserves it — more than anyone.