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Today I cried and screamed and stomped my feet and threw my keys on the ground. Today I was filled with a poisonous fear and anger towards nobody but myself and this overwhelming feeling that nothing is within my control. Today I realised that I have the most amazing boyfriend, because he put up with this behaviour and remained calm, and, eventually, even calmed me. Today I realised that despite any stupid diagnosis, it is not depression that ails me, but fear and self-doubt and a need to better understand and control my own turbulent emotions.