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Today I think I got over you. Today I realized it’s never gonna happen, so why should I wait around? It’s difficult, being over you. Because sadly, you’re kind of what I’m looking for. You fit my “criteria”. Which is awful. Not that you are all of those awesome things, but that you are all the awesome things that I’m looking for, and having trouble finding. But, at the same time I don’t know if I’ll ever be over you. Mainly because of the hugs feeling of regret weighing me down. If only I told you I liked you sooner, then you would have asked me out instead of her. Oh yeah, he has a girlfriend. And then he talks to me and I just wonder, “If this is how you treat me, how in the hell do you treat your girlfriend?”. I doubt he knows it, but he flirts with me all the time. Whenever I talk to him. Which is actually what is making it difficult. Talking to him. I think that I am over him, but then I talk to him and I feel like I’m not. But he’ll see. I’ll find someone. Maybe when I do, my life will be more tolerable. But. I think I’m over him. As much as I don’t want to be. And as much as I wish that I was his, instead of her. As much as I wish that I could share the (most likely) sweet, soft kisses instead if him sharing them with her. I think I’m over him. Maybe. Yes. I think posting this has helped me realize that I am. That waiting around is worthless. That I have to move on with my life. That I have to live my life to the fullest extent, not checking to see if they’ve broken up yet. Because I think that that’s what my life is missing, living.
